hey guys I was going to submit a new journal earlier but the comput froze on me. so now I'm on a new computer!! yay!!
and!!! whatever... so hey guys!
I was saying before the computer froze that I had strange dreams and I think I'm going insane and all that.

anyway I have t osay one thing.... THEY TOOK ME TO THE HOSPITAL JUST BECAUSE OF A LITTLE STOMACH ACHE!!!!!
my god its like they want to scare me half to death. They even wanted to give me a blood test for colesterol!!! DX gahhhh!!!!
not cool!!! I don't like doctors poking needles in me to take out my blood!!! I like my blood to stay in my body thank you very much!! >.<
I'm afraid of hospitals... always give me this chill down my spine. ugh...and I hate my therapist too. my mom says that when I come back she wants me to do more sessons.
My mom overriactics to what I do. sometimes I don't eat.... well because I'm not hungry. sometimes I put a hood over my head and it makes me look like some dark killer and take pictures... well because I want too.
smoetimes I don't want to take a walk.... I DON'T LIKE GOING OUTSIDE!!..... sometimes I don't go to the beach.... I'll tell you right now for all of you ahead pf time.... I HATE GOING TO THE BEACH! IF I DON'T GO WITH FRIENDS THEN I WON'T GO AT ALL!!
My mom knows this and yet she pushes me to go... when I do I just sit there then she wants me to go into the FREEZING COLD water.... I'm having a melt down DX.
just gotta calm down. my sister and I were talking one night. And we were talking about fun times in Colorado.
She started crying... and I hate that but I couldn't help but cry too. All I said was that I hated it here in Florida and I wish we could go back... Idk why I even spoke such words but I did... and right in front of my little sister.
So like she does she takes everything I say and turns it into something that she really believes that I truely hate Florida.... I kinda do... I've never been so misserable any where else... so sometimes I just wish I could go back....
but we all don't get what we want...plus my friends there forgot me by now so it doesn't matter if I go back or not.
well ENOUGH OF THIS SAD CRAP!!!
ugh... I love caps... XD
anyway I'll be off see you later